12 8 / 2014

Today’s Gemini horoscope

Today’s Gemini horoscope

12 8 / 2014

Normally I would condone the Secret, for personal reasons - them being, I used to read it aloud to my dyslexic ex-boyfriend before we went to bed most nights… But this quote speaks to me. Maybe it’s time to dust it off and read it again. Need all the positivity I can get!

Normally I would condone the Secret, for personal reasons - them being, I used to read it aloud to my dyslexic ex-boyfriend before we went to bed most nights… But this quote speaks to me. Maybe it’s time to dust it off and read it again. Need all the positivity I can get!

12 8 / 2014

12 8 / 2014

So there’s been something on my mind the last few days, something I thought would never come back to haunt me.

About a year ago I had this vile break up, so vile that my emotions completely took me over and I behaved in unspeakable ways to try and rid myself of all feelings of this person. It ended messy, and when I say messy, I mean the other guy got punched and I was attemptedly arrested on their behalf.

When I sat before the officers, being faced with these events of the past couple of months, I no longer wished to be reminded of it all, came clean about everything and just prayed that the whole thing could be written off so could just go on living my life. I was sick and tired of it all and the degree of seriousness it had been taken to (in my opinion a little over-dramatic and completely uncalled for) was ridiculous.

And that’s what I did. I moved on, I went on with my own life and left it all behind. I mean yes, the memories still haunted me, but the only way to escape it all was to try and forget about it.

It’s only now that my life has taken a turn for the better, these very events of the past could have a drastic impact on whether or not I can take my next steps to success.

I know people can just say, it’s your own fault therefore you have to deal with it… But do I? I mean, it’s been over a year, do I still have to be punished for something I’m sure we’ve both moved on from?

I lost a lot letting go of that one person. I saw a lot of people’s true colours and a lot of people saw mine. I paid a huge price for what I did and now I potentially could be refused my next chance to actually make something of my life because apparently I’m still a villain.

Did I kill innocent civilians in Iraq just because they didn’t have the same beliefs in me? Hell no, I may have done wrong, but nothing I can’t be forgiven for.

What I want to say, may come as a shock, but I have a right to freedom of speech. I don’t deserve to be prevented from moving on with my life because of that one person. I don’t. But it seems that because I have this one bad mark against my name, which isn’t even a criminal conviction, before that starts speculating, a silly little breakup that went way too far, because we were both pathetic little drama queens who thought it was the end of the world, might prevent me from being able to take, what I believe to be, a monumental step in my life.

The past can’t be re-written, so there’s no point ranting about what I should have changed, but I can regret what did happen, and I can hope to forgiven for it.

I just hope whoever calls the shots in life understands that I’m not a mass murderer or a paedophile or an extremist, I am a human being, who has made mistakes, had his heart broken, done a lot for other people because he knew in his heart he wasn’t a bad person.

Because if all of this is still impacting on my life and seemingly not impacting on their’s, then that is unfair and I don’t what will do next. Why should I be the only one that suffers?

11 8 / 2014

Waking up for work and having SERIOUS conversations with Johnny all the way in Canada. Well… not too SERIOUS.

Waking up for work and having SERIOUS conversations with Johnny all the way in Canada. Well… not too SERIOUS.

09 8 / 2014

07 8 / 2014

'Nough said. 4 years ago. My first and last ever Brighton Pride with my GBF Timbo, who was actually my bf back then. Time flies!

'Nough said. 4 years ago. My first and last ever Brighton Pride with my GBF Timbo, who was actually my bf back then. Time flies!

07 8 / 2014

06 8 / 2014

The TECHNICOMA

The TECHNICOMA

06 8 / 2014

And who says romance isn’t dead? 😋